However, instead of being the light, do you find yourself dimming your luminous essence?
Even though you’re successful, there’s a part of you that holds back.
Maybe you don’t want people to think you’re full of yourself so you play it safe, and stay small.
Maybe you don’t allow yourself to express your true desires so you don’t ask for help, or you keep delaying taking that leap, or you stay in that relationship that you know deep down is over and done with.
Or maybe, you silence your brilliance and dreams and they lay like sleeping giants in your head, on your hard drive, and in your heart.
But who has time to think about all of that anyway?
You’re super busy and stretched to the limit. You’re so busy giving, and giving, and giving to everyone you love. You’ve become the poster child for doing it all, but then there are those days, when you just want to hide and stay in bed binging on Netflix and Nutella.
On the worst days, you’re your own hardest critic.
That’s when it begins…
You find yourself again at the crossroads of confusion, frozen by fear, stifled by negative self-talk and judgment, and caught in the downwards spiral of self-sabotage. On those days, you wonder where the real you went? Back in the day you were so full of life, limitless, and free. The world was your playground and you believed in magic — your magic.
Now you’ve become masterful at doing the “I can do it all” juggling act, people even compliment you for it; some are even envious. When people mention your name is preceded by the adjective Super. Little do they know, that a storm is brewing and you’re afraid that at some point all the balls are going to drop and all hell will break loose– or maybe it already has?
I’ve been there, and I will tell you that…
Beyond confusion and doubt lies crystal clear clarity.
Beyond your fears is unshakeable faith.
Beyond the negative self-talk, self-sabotage and judgment
is soulful self-love and soul fuel.
Beloved, beyond the storm is your light and liberation and the unconditional love that flows everywhere.
The way through?
To bravely enter the eye of the storm.
At the beginning of 2005, a friend gifted me a Marianne Williamson lecture. She shared it because we were in a hyper-competitive program and I was in a midst of an emotional breakdown. The cover looked interesting, and besides I was desperate for answers so I listened to it.
Her words touched my soul and I was moved to tears when I heard this now famous passage…
“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It’s not just in some of us; it’s in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”
Those powerful words propelled me towards reclaiming my light and liberation.
The truth was that behind the worldly woman I was at the time, there was a girl who felt sad and broken by life. I had to take that girl by the hand and face my self-doubt, self-esteem and the constant sadness that plagued me.
I won’t tell you it was easy — it was freakin’ hard. However, I did the work which consisted of a spectrum of modalities and on the other side was the me I always knew existed.
In 2009, I had the courage and confidence to open an online business. I worked hard and it paid off. The business was wildly successful. I was creating best selling programs, living bi-coastally, and when I made in a month more than I did in a year at my old job, I thought I had made it.
However, I kept hearing that there was more to do, deeper to go. I was being called to teach transformational work, tell people about my journey, and share all the knowledge that had been passed on to me.
But I ignored the call — well, sort of. I started to coach clients on the work that had changed my life, however, even though they got amazing results, I didn’t say publicly, “This is what I do!” I hid behind my old self, and stayed well inside the cozy confines of my comfort zone. I was like dipping my toe in the ocean, but never taking the full plunge.
This continued for years, until, a category five storm hit me when my father died. Her raging winds shook me to my core, and brought me to my knees. I wanted to die. A year later I almost did.
Right before Thanksgiving, I had over a dozen guns pointed at my back. On that cloudless night, with tears streaming down my face, staring at the heavens I promised that if I made it out alive, I would liberate my light and help others do the same.
Little did I know, that that promise required that I go deeper than I ever had before.
I peeled back more layers, I had to face the childhood trauma, the perfectionism, the unexplained illnesses, the abuse, the constant wanting to fix something. I had to face the ways that I had betrayed myself by not listening to my soul, and cloaking my light. I had to face and heal my shame and forgive myself, and let go of past regrets and grudges. I had to face and transform my shadows, wounds, and the narratives that kept me small and comfortable.
That meant having uncomfortable conversations, taking big scary actions, and letting go of those lingering toxic relationships.
During this process of liberating my light, I learned to love my humanity and align it with my holiness. As I deepened on this path, I also realized that I being asked to rise and embrace my innate worth, wholeness, and wild feminine power.
As I did, a brand new woman emerged. Things I had been trying to manifest and transform for years came into being effortlessly.
I became clear on my purpose. My relationships healed. My relationship with my body became loving. I embraced and celebrated my imperfections. My messaging and branding fell into place. My boundaries stood firm. My creativity went through the roof. I attracted people who valued me. My intuition deepened. I went on epic adventures. I married my soulmate. I became a mother. I had a strong network of sisters who supported me.
Yes, obstacles and challenges emerged, but no matter how big or small I knew deep in my core that without a doubt, I had the power of the universe behind me, and everything was happening for me and not to me.
This is the work that I still do and this is the work that I guide my clients in doing.
Now, we’ve come to the point where you must answer an important question…
Will you answer the call to have love affair with your light?
If you gotten this far, I’ll take a wild guess that your answer is a yes.
If it is — welcome home beloved because…
When you liberate your light,
you liberate your life
and liberate the world.
My superpowers are to see your innate worth and wholeness and lovingly guide you transform your shadows, wounds, narratives, and step into your highest vision for your life. I hold the space and serve as a mirror, so you can reclaim your wild magic + medicine.
If there’s something you should know about me is that I am a guide, not a guru. The work that I teach is the work I do, and to me that’s the beauty of it — we all get to be teachers and students at the same time.
If we ever get the honor of working together you should know…
This is what I believe with all my soul.
I believe you are light and in your light.
I believe that releasing your light is your path to liberation — yours and the world’s.
I believe in doing the deep soul work that will allow your vision to manifest in magnificent ways.
I believe your vision is your gift to the world.
I believe that your medicine, magic, and mojo are interconnected.
I believe that self-honoring and self-compassion lead to self-love.
I believe you are holy and human and both are equally beautiful and essential.
I believe we are all leaders.
I believe in magic and miracles.
I believe that you are whole.
I believe in living, loving, parenting, leading, giving and creating from the feminine.
I believe Grace is another name for God.
I believe that our bodies are our connection to the divine.
I believe that sisterhood rocks, and when we truly rise in sisterhood it will change the world.
I believe in fully embracing our worthy, whole and wild selves.
I believe we’re all on the journey home.